My Management , My Trip with My Feeling

Nursing Life 的第一个Management Week， 我过得很忙碌、很累人、很充足。在C19 Oncology Ward， 癌症病房里，我看到那些努力抗癌的病人，我很感动，真的！

Cancer -- 癌症，听起来多么可怕啊！在人人心中、眼中、 脑中， 癌症是不治之症。一旦被证实罹癌，就觉得自己必死无疑。那些旁观者对癌症病人说的话，不外乎是看开点，开心点，不要去想病情，不要去想有多痛，做些别的事来转移注意力。包括我在内,也是这样对我的病人说。可是，我知道，我们不能真正的从他们的角度看世界，因为那真的很不一样！我看过癌症病人病发痛的时候，痛到流泪、痛到入心入肺、痛到连 high dose 的Morphine也对病人起不了作用、痛到想死！

在短短的五天里，病人不断进进出出，有的积极面对疾病，有些每天以泪洗脸，也有的脱离病魔离开人世。可是，真正的罹癌的病人，有几个真的能积极面对疾病，面对人生？当一Cycle又一Cycle的Chemotherapy之后，一次又一次的Radiotherapy过后，面对大大小小需要的躺在手术台上的Procedure过后，病魔依然穷追不舍，试问还有几个能坚强的和病魔对抗、和疼痛拼搏？在病房里， 有30++个病人，我发现到，只有那么的唯一一个积极的面对她的乳癌复发，每天每天都到不同病人的床边给他们鼓励，要他们加油。我相信，从她嘴里讲出的鼓励，一定比我们这些“平凡人”来的更有说服力。

今天离开病房前，病人哭了，她牵着我的手对我说：你很好，我会想你的。我听到后，心里暖暖的，很感动！这几天里，无论是Incharge还是Runner，我都好忙好忙好忙，忙到焦头烂耳，忙到汗流侠背。其间我突然觉得，护士，这真的是一份要用心、用汗水、用耐心、用不求回报的态度来照顾病人。真的！如果你真的真心对他们，他们感觉的到！每一次看到病人开心出院、每一次看到病人的伤口一天比一天康复、每一次看到病人从整天躺在床到后来能下床走动，往往心里都觉得满满的感动和成就感，觉得一切的努力和辛苦都值得！我希望我会一直一直得以现在这种态度照顾病人。如果到哪一天我累了，我闷了、我没有那颗心了，我会离开护士的圈子。毕竟我不想把病人的性命开玩笑。

Finished of my “Report”of my 1^st management week. Now let me talk about my Holiday just passed last 2 weeks. After of College Final Exam, I choose to give myself a relax vacation. Therefore, I decided to go Kelantan for 9 days holiday with my dearest group member à Syakina! If not mistaken, she had invited me to travel to her hometown since we are Semester2, now finally can go already!

Theme of my holidays this time : Back to Natural Life^^

Here are some photo taken during holidays~

1st day arrived at Kelantan, Me & She ( Syakina ) went for blood donation! Same  situation as last blod donation, i had been cucuk both hand~ Pain T.T --> So I decided will donate blood using my big vein at right hand next time~

After so many times of blood donation, this is my 1st time to receive an appreciate Certificate^^

Went to beach with friends, but i not really know what is the beach name~ But I'm sure that is somewhere at Kelantan! hahahahahaXD

Satay Malaysia

Budu

 Is all about FOOD FOOD FOOD~Actually got some more, but i lazy to put them up here~ Is so nice enjoy the food under sky, feel the real nature life~

At Sibu, there also got a Rejang River. But I never have a drink at the river side. But i done it at Sempadan of Malaysia & Thailand~

 The most favorite during this holidays, is the time of every morning wake up time.
Is so damn cold and I can feel the really fresh air here!

That's all about me for past 2 weeks~
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See you all next time~~~