What a tiring day....

I know...

I know that our secret garden will be dismiss soon...

Is my fault?

Yup...

MAY BE IS MY FAULT~~~

But,

What can i do？

I can do nothing...

^^

Just telling my self the TRUTH...

The TRUTH is,

Not one by my side is treat me sincerely...

Everyone are wearing mask...

A mask that can totally cover their own face & attitude...

It' s OKAY...

I will bear all these...

I know I can be brave...

I believe I can do it !!!

Actually i really want to find friend that can so close with me...

Close till don't have any secret...

But i confirm that,

I can't find here...

I can't find another LILY WONG ING ING in my life again...

* My dear Ing Ing, miss you much ^<^ *

Yesterday night I had burn mid night oil just to study my Medical - Surgical 2,

* My note for my revision *

It is because of I had this subject final exam on this morning...

Really whole night din sleep ,

And also gossip with Joreen a lot...

Now i realize that,

Reality is really cruel...

If you don't have any valuable for people,

They will just throw you away...

Haiz...

Talk about my Medical - Surgical Nursing final exam...

Really not confident to do...

Add on,

I missed up so many points....

But past mean past...

It never will turn back time again...

Just like our friendship...

So,

After the exam,

Me, Beng, Loo Yee, Junya, and Kim Pei

go to Little Cottage for having our lunch...

May be i try to treat myself a better meal after whole night studying of Med- Surg 2...

=='''

Sincerely...

The dishes there really nice...

I like it very much...

May be next time go with you, dear...

^^

* My meal today : Black Pepper Chicken *

Yummy yummy....

^^

After lunch,

I go back home and take shower...

After that,

I need hurry to go to GIANT for working...

I also don't know why I will go to work during this holiday...

Actually I plan to have a trip with my secret garden...

But, she prefer to go trip with her own friends,

So,

never mind...

I go and find my own activity then...

Believe that I will fill my Raya holiday with all the activity and,

Through this,

I hope I can reduce my feeling of missing home during this holidays~~~

The main reason that I don't want alone at home...

T.T

It' s time to sleep...

Good night, everyone....

Have a sweet dream...

^^

I Need to be BRAVE !!!

"I am alone...

I need to be strong..."

I keep on telling the same thing to myself...

But,

When come back to reality,

How i need to accept it?

I sacred...

I scared to be alone...

Betray is really suck thing!!!

I hate it...

If you can't implement what you promise me,

then you please don't simply give me hope...

And now...

You want me to bear all these!!!

Now I really need REINSPECT actually what kind of people you are...

Joreen, you are right...

But I won't hate her...

That is not my way to solve the problem...

I am gonna use my own way to solve this...

By the way,

thanks for your concern...

& also your advise...

I will bear in my mind...

Beng,

That's not your fault,

Thanks for your message...

When saw your message,

I cry...

Sincerely,

is because I really feel touched and lovely...

And I knew that you know me...

If you ask me when I am down,

I sure will become more sad,

will drop more tears...

Thanks...^^

Friends...

Don't worry about me...

I am a STRONG & BRAVE girl...

I will overcome all these problem..

Believe me...

I will recover soon...

^^

失眠的夜

Allow myself to write this blog in Chinese...

Cox I really want to express a lot....

现在是半夜两点十四分。。。

现在的我，

一点睡意都没有。。。

而且，

我还做着笔记。。。

是的。。。

没有错。。。

我也很惊讶。。。

我竟然也会做笔记做到这么迟？

已经多久没这样了。。。

是不是我也会怕别人追上我？

赢过我？

看低我？

取笑我？

可是做着做着。。。

我竟然想家了。。。

接着的是，

我源源不绝的泪水。。。

我不知道。。。

不知道自己今夜怎么了？

为什么会那么情绪化？？？

我已经多久没掉眼泪了？？？

是不是 Medical & Surgical 的Final考试将近,

莫名的压力感向我逼近？

我不知道。。。

还是我真的太久没回家了？

让我对家的思念越来越浓。。。

今天在面子书上看到了这么一个文章。。。

哭的时候没人哄，我学会了坚强；

怕的时候没人陪，我学会了勇敢；

烦的时候没人问，我学会了承受；

累的时候没人可以依靠，我学会了自立......

我一直在想，

我真的长大了吗？

离开家，

我真的能照顾自己吗？

我已经做好离开家的准备了吗？

其实我的坚强、勇敢、承受。。。

都是被逼出来的。。。

一个人在外地念书，

我不得不向现实低头。。。

像现在夜深人静。。。

我却只能对着电脑诉苦。。。

因为在别人眼中，

我是一个坚强的女孩。。。

我是一个勇敢的女孩。。。

我是一个能承受所有的女孩。。。

殊不知，

我其实也是凡人一个。。。

我也有脆弱的时候。。。

我也想被人疼。。。

我也希望有个温暖的背膀来给我依靠。。。

--- Sentiment ---

Erm erm...

Feel like long time didn't come here to express my mood ...

Not because of nothing happen on me or around me ...

Its just because i feel like some unhappy thing should not be appear in my blog~~~

^^

Recently,

I have favor feeling with a obstetric & gynecology doctor...

Dun know why...

He is "BOTAK"...

* Not because of calvities yea *

That is his style...^^

He have a plump body...

*Although I like muscle man as well *

He is a Malay...

* Although I prefer Chinese guy *

&

He is a DOCTOR...

* I swear before that I will not like doctor in future *

BUT

Why I still allure by him...

May be is because of the expression when he is concentrating...

Feel like he is immerse himself into his work...

Sincerely,

A guy who ever pay full attention in doing work will always attract me...

I think not only me...

Most of people will have same condition as me...

It is right???

Concentrating....

Make me thinking of you...

You always is the one who try your best when try to make me happy...

Make me smile...

But,

Now???

I miss you...

How are you nowadays?

Everything fine ?

I wish so...

The time passed so speedy...

Already 3 years...

I almost forget your lineament...

Your smile,

Your tears,

Your everything...

Is that good for you and for me?

I think YES !!!

Wish you Good Luck...

I will find my next guy who love me...

I hope same to you...

&

I really put down all my love on you...

I know you also try to do so...

Cox both of us knew that we cant be together forever...

Good Bye, My Love...