天下没有丑女人, 只有懒女人^^

Friday, October 18, 2013

久违了,我的小天地

才发现,我已经有五个月没来我的小小天地了。都快生草了呢!这半年来,还真的发生了不少事,我的人生从一个阶段进入另一个阶段。是好的人生新一页!

好吧。话说我上一次写心情日记时,是在述说我的应征情况,那现在就从我应征过后开始讲起吧!

话说我应征过后,参加了我的senior farewell night后,我第二天就搭早班飞机回家啦~在家的日子真的过得特别快。一转眼,又回到槟城,进 I 做工了三个月多了。

做工期间,很是压力…病人,医生,同事,上司…全部对我来说,都是压力。可庆幸的是,我也遇到了朋友!她是我的preceptor。跟着她,我学到了很多,吃了很多美食,学了很多手艺,比如说→ food art~

还有,我毕业了。虽然我早就在六月时就知道自己可以毕业了。只是要等convocation罢了。妈妈来了,弟弟来了,姨姨也来了。我很高兴。可我知道,老妈比我还要开心。人人都说,毕业的时候,就是失业的开始…我该庆幸我还没毕业就找到工作又或者该哀悼我短暂的假期呢?回想看来,我真的要哀悼我的假期。因为现在的工作真的太忙太累了。可能大家都觉得OT很多,但是,这些钱真的赚的很劳累。

好啦。这就是最近的生活啦。都在忙着做工。一回到宿舍,到头就睡。睡醒又要做工。难得的off day,偶尔还会和朋友出去走走,看戏,游泳。不然,真的要在宿舍生菇,做宅女了。

最近,我的生活就是这样。虽然没有很精彩,可是就平平安安,平平淡淡,平平静静。我不讨厌这样的生活,只是有时会觉得有点累。唯一不完美的就是,亲爱的家人不在身边。。。

Saturday, May 25, 2013

Good bye May, Welcome June!!!

Hi, my dearest blog! Here today I come back for u to share my experience on 1st time formal interview. Erhem… How to say? I just felt  that my interview was going on so smoothly… And I saw that the comment I have is “Confident ”~~~ with the entrance test result 29/30… Haha^^ So they ask me Good Luck in my NBE and give them a call when pass my NBE… Actually “I” Hospital has quite good offer for me. I think so….  The basic around Rm1500++. Add on all the allowance, is around RM 1900. Not only this, with all the OT and shift allowance, is going to RM2000++ per month. Not only this , for outstation staff, they will provide accommodation for us. So, I think that I will stay and work at Penang.



When I  tell Mummy about this, I knew that she was not happy as me… As she wish me go back Sibu to work… But I feel that if I go back work, seem like waste my 3 years study here… Add on I wish to get a post basic before I went back…Mum, I know what u worried about.. My mum so worry that I am going to married here and won’t go back Sibu. Mum, No worries! I still remember where am I from.. I will go back my original definitely!!!


Haha! Finally I booked my ticket to went home on 15 June!!! Is damn cheap while I taking MAS and only cost me RM166 with 30kg luggage… Now I just wait for June to come! I got one  feeling  that June will be a very busy and wonderful month for me!!! My Nursing Board Exam, My Senior farewell, My Birthday, My Result, My Holiday, My final Decision of my career…



JUNE, Pls be Good to ME~~~

Forget to post this : My changes from year 2010 to year 2013


I Don’t know that does time change me a lot, But I clear that I been more mature throughout the years! Thanks everyone that with me alone the years. No matter good or bad memories, there will be my BEST memory!!!

Saturday, May 11, 2013

给妈妈的一封信


给我唯一老妈:

老妈,首先,先对您说声“母亲节快乐”!!!对不起,你唯一的女儿没办法回家帮你庆祝母亲节。这已经是第几个没我在您身边的母亲节了?算一算,应该是第四个了吧。其实我不敢跟您保证,以后的母亲节,我会不会一定在您身边。毕竟,我并没打算要回到诗巫做工。可是有一点我能保证的事,您永远是我心中的第一!就算我有男朋友或我结婚了,我的男人一定在您之下,永远的第二名。

16年前,那时我7岁,您39岁,他也39岁。可是他,不顾一切,就丢下您,和5个小的和3个老的,仙游去了。而您不愿再嫁,死守着这个家。那时的我还不懂事,还不懂您的辛苦。随着时间的流逝,您的皱纹一天比一天多,白发像要抗议您所付出的幸劳似的拼命的长出来,可您一句怨言都没有。而我,在经历了那么多过后,才恍然大悟您的付出。

妈,对不起。我在外读书,念的是护士,可在您生病时,我无法在您身旁照顾您。请原谅我。所以请您好好的照顾自己,好吗?有时候,您生病了,我也是从哥哥弟弟口中得知。我知道,您不想告诉我是不要让我担心。而且,就算跟我讲了,我也不能马上回去看您。所以您就选择了不说。妈,为了您自己,请对自己好一点,好吗?

从小,每逢母亲节,我就有买花送您的习惯。今年,就算我来到槟城念书了,我还是一直都没中断这个习惯。今年叫了二哥去买。虽然您总会说,不用买了,浪费钱,花放久就谢了,拿钱给您花还比较实际。可是我比谁都清楚,您只是嘴巴说说,当真正买了花送您时,您是会感动的。所谓:知母者莫若女嘛!哈哈哈哈哈

妈,最后我想送首歌给你。



那一瞬间 你放开了指尖
要我勇敢 跨向前
那张照片 学走路的画面
所有爱 不需 语言

离开你身边 外面的世界
我不怕去冒险

只因为
就算我会跌倒 我都记牢
就算我再跌倒 泪不会掉 OH
就让我跌倒 我会微笑
一想到 有你的怀抱让我靠

这一瞬间 你放开了指尖
要我勇敢 奔向前
毕业照片 我们笑得很甜
所有爱 不需 语言

离开你身边 外面的世界
我不怕去冒险

只因为
就算我会跌倒 我都记牢
就算我再跌倒 泪不会掉 OH
就让我跌倒 我会微笑
一想到 有你的怀抱让我靠

(我会很好)
我真的好... 是因为

就算我会跌倒 我都记牢
就算我再跌倒 泪不准掉 OH
就让我跌倒 我学会笑 我知道
我曾经是你的骄傲
我一直是你的骄

妈,我希望我永远都是您的骄傲!

老妈唯一的女儿上


                                    妈, 如果有下辈子,下下辈子,下下下辈子,我还是要做您女儿!!!


Sunday, May 5, 2013

无言的结局。。。


一直以来,我对于政治,真的没有很关心。但这次,我真的开始关心了。甚至担心。55,换政府。可我们换的了吗?现在已经半夜1255分了。然而大选票还没算完?有这么难算吗?Sarawak大多数都国阵赢了,然而还不到十点就算完了,半岛真的有那么难算吗?幸好KuchingSibuLanangSarikeiStampin的火箭都升空了,可是,这有用吗?大马一样肮脏!

停电,重算,还多多少肮脏的手段还没出?只觉得,马来西亚不是个民主的国家吗?我觉得,不是了。在很久很久以前就不是了。。。

真的,我也累了。。。无话可说,无言以对。。。马来西亚,玩完了。



Saturday, April 27, 2013

五月五,换政府!*不是行动党对抗人联党,也不是民联对抗国阵,而是清廉对战腐败、圣洁对抗罪恶*


大选就快来了。这次大选的口号:五月五,换政府! 咦? 有押韵呢~是啊,55日,会不会是大马改变历史的一天?会不会变天?会不会换政府?这次大选,我没有得投票。原因因为当初觉得多我一票不多,少我一票也不少。可是讲真的,还真有点后悔呢。。。如果我也能投下我的那一票,而到时也真的换了政府,我应该也会有那么一点功劳吧?

打开面子书,满满的都在数落着Ah Jib哥的不是。他老婆的包包、钻戒,白毛的身家。。。当然还有槟城首长林冠英的风光伟绩!其实看到火箭,月亮,眼睛站在同一阵线,顿时让我明白什么叫做“Satu Malaysia”。


历年大选,我都没感觉到大马人民如此的反抗,如此的积极,如此的想要换政府。可见大马人民想通了、看清了、选对了!可是,我觉得称子党应得的。如果他们真的在这次大选中落败,这叫自食恶果。怪不得别人、怨不得别人!怪只怪他们都太贪心了。。。


电视报纸都在说着国政的好,民联的不好。可是电脑一开一上线,什么都不一样了。毕竟现在是网际网络时代了,什么都能在网上看到!恶搞的照片,改编的歌,部落格的文章,每天都像源源不断的在更新着,每天都像在看live Show 一样。


最让我感到反感的,就是那路边挂满篮篮的一马旗帜!曾经,蓝色是我喜欢的颜色之一,可现在,看到蓝色,总觉得哪里不对。亲爱的前政府,怎么你们不懂与其花钱去印传单,还不如设宴席、开演唱会都比这个还值得吗? 大选过后,你们要把这些旗帜怎么处理呢?别告诉我你要在五年后再循环使用。是拿去丢呢还是烧毁呢?不管哪一样,都是在制造垃圾,污染环境。你看民联的,适可而止,才是明智的做法!Lynas已经污染了马来西亚,而现在你们还要再掺上一脚吗?



我觉得这次不是行动党对抗人联党,也不是民联对抗国政,而是清廉对战腐败、圣洁对抗罪恶! 看看刘明福,贪污让人冤死!现今大马真的生病了,病得严重。大马子民,请为自己、为家人、为国家献上一份力。不要像我一样现在后悔着!

还有8天。不管结局如何,都为马来西亚祈福。毕竟这里是我土生土长的地方。加油了,在跟黑势力对抗的勇士们!







Friday, April 19, 2013

We Sure Can Make It 100% Pass in NBE!!!


盼了很久很久很久很久很久很久,我的College Final Exam的成绩终于出炉啦~~~ 感谢老天,我又平平安安的及格了!我一直对自己说,从Sem 1 开始,我就没有不及格而重考过,所以这次也一样!原本以为那一张Medical Surgical Paper会惨不忍睹,可是成绩出乎我意料。真的!一个B+两个B。不是很好的成绩,可是我满意。因为及格对我来说,已经足够。因为那是张通往NBE考场的入门票。

今天,有个女人进来我班而写了以下这东西在班上的白板上。。。我真的不懂,她是要激励我们还是侮辱我们。。。


真的!我看了真的超级的不爽!就是这短短几个看不起我们的字母符号与数字。。。我拼了我的老命也要在NBE及格。。。我一直都知道经验是很重要的东西,可是我们也不是省油的灯。我们可是N2/10Please DONT judge a book by its cover!我承认我们很顽皮,可是我们还不至于您讲的那么糟糕!我们也是有Teamwork的!我们一定会及格的!

加油吧! N2/10~~~

Sunday, April 7, 2013

To My Beloved CI


CI = Clinical Instructor

In my life of being a student nurse, I really want to thanks all of my CI, is really a lot CI been in my student life of nursing… But these few are those stay longest time with me…

Compared to lecturer, I really appreciate CI more… Not say that I forget what my lecturer done to me. But compared to CI, I feel that I will put them forever in my memory. Always! We work together, just like friends, colleagues … We work together, we learn together ( but most of time is I am the one get knowledge from them), we laugh together, we gossip together, we cry together… CI are the one who know my strength, my weakness, my problems… They willing to teach & I willing to learn… *Expect the 2 ladies that I really can’ t follow their ways * You know who I meant… Hehe^^

Yesterday, with some of classmate, we had go for dinner at Kenny Roger Roaster at 1st Avenue.  The dinner not so nice, but the event after dinner is so good which is photo session. CI are crying… My eyes also full of tears but I don’t allowed them to drop… Honestly, I really feel sad when knowing they are leaving me soon… How to say ? Is just like friends that work together for 3 years and now are leaving… And yet, we don’t know that we still can meet each other or not. But if I still at Penang after work, I think I will still keep in touch with my beloved CI.

Let’s me show some of my cute CI picture yesterday night…


She à Miss Farah, my current Mummy & she is my beloved Mummy…For past, now & always ! I had learn a lot from her… Since Semester 1, I always been posted with her. So, she can consider at my “ Nanny ” in my nursing Life… As u know, how important a nanny to a baby, & how she important to me~ 


She à  Miss Queendy, my past mummy, or my step mother? Hehe~ I forgot since when, she start to teach using rationale, & I damn like this way of teaching. This make me really will follow the step by step teach by her…


She à Miss Masuri, a lovely CI… especially when talk to her daughter… Totally show full of LOVE ~ Wish to become her daughter too…. Oops ! Should be sister ! Hehe… Actually I did not follow her since Semester 1… If not mistaken, 1st time I with her is at C1- Pediatric Ward when I was Sem 5. But just only 2 Sem, I feel like so “keberatan” to let her go… But I am happy as she got a good post in Island Hospital. May be will become her junior? Haha! May be… Since she keep on asking me work at Island Hospital~ Hehe


She à Miss Aslina, A CI like to share her story, & I like to listen her story as well… She is a CI that has her own style! So Cool man! Now she is Sister in LGL Specialist Centre.  Hope she will enjoy her new job over there!


She à Miss Quah, A CI garang… But she less work at ward… But she was so good and nice as she willing to arrange my holidays so that I have a longer holiday with family. So suprised saw she also crying. I think may be the bacteria of separate is too strong! And yet she asking, why you all like to cry in shopping mall? haha... What a cute CI! I still remember that the part she cubit me… Cox I had give subcutaneous injection at lower part of patient arm… Since that day, I NEVER inject patient that part anymore! Because its really very painful! Wuwuwuwu T.T


She à Miss Ng, still remember 1st time saw her, I thought that she is a ballet dancer. Why? Because of her hair always neat & tidy with a buns! Plus on the ways she walk just like dancing! A pretty CI and so skillful! But I am very bad… I make she cry before… Still remember that time I had my Night shift with some of my friends at Seberang Hospit.l, due to some problems, she was so angry & cry… Sorry Miss, I really doesn’ t want to make u cry… I m so sorry, Pls forgive me… & Wish u enjoy ur sister Life in Island Hospital~


She à Miss Lai, My Psychiatric CI…Ooops.. This is not meant by she is psychiatric, but I only follow her at psychiatric ward, I think so. Even I did not with her always, but I found that she is a very good counselor just through 1 time conversation… U will have your problem solved if u share your problem to her..

Actually, I got another CI who really help me a lot… But now she at US honeymoon with her hubby~ So she was unable to join us yesterday… But I am pretty sure that we still have chance to meet up, right?

At last, I want to say : My CI, Thank you a lot for guide me along this 3 years. I really appreciate it! I really grateful and thanks GOD that I have such CI like you all… I wish to apologize if I had did something wrong ( I knew I had did it ) or hurt your feeling… I’m SORRY… Lastly, no matter where you go, what you be, I will always here pray for you all… will Miss you all badly (especially when with new CI)


Good Luck + Good Bye, My BELOVED CI… 

Friday, April 5, 2013

My Management , My Trip with My Feeling


Nursing Life 的第一个Management Week, 我过得很忙碌、很累人、很充足。在C19 Oncology Ward, 癌症病房里,我看到那些努力抗癌的病人,我很感动,真的!

Cancer -- 癌症,听起来多么可怕啊!在人人心中、眼中、 脑中, 癌症是不治之症。一旦被证实罹癌,就觉得自己必死无疑。那些旁观者对癌症病人说的话,不外乎是看开点,开心点,不要去想病情,不要去想有多痛,做些别的事来转移注意力。包括我在内,也是这样对我的病人说。可是,我知道,我们不能真正的从他们的角度看世界,因为那真的很不一样!我看过癌症病人病发痛的时候,痛到流泪、痛到入心入肺、痛到连 high dose Morphine也对病人起不了作用、痛到想死!

在短短的五天里,病人不断进进出出,有的积极面对疾病,有些每天以泪洗脸,也有的脱离病魔离开人世。可是,真正的罹癌的病人,有几个真的能积极面对疾病,面对人生?当一Cycle又一CycleChemotherapy之后,一次又一次的Radiotherapy过后,面对大大小小需要的躺在手术台上的Procedure过后,病魔依然穷追不舍,试问还有几个能坚强的和病魔对抗、和疼痛拼搏?在病房里, 有30++个病人,我发现到,只有那么的唯一一个积极的面对她的乳癌复发,每天每天都到不同病人的床边给他们鼓励,要他们加油。我相信,从她嘴里讲出的鼓励,一定比我们这些“平凡人”来的更有说服力。

今天离开病房前,病人哭了,她牵着我的手对我说:你很好,我会想你的。我听到后,心里暖暖的,很感动!这几天里,无论是Incharge还是Runner,我都好忙好忙好忙,忙到焦头烂耳,忙到汗流侠背。其间我突然觉得,护士,这真的是一份要用心、用汗水、用耐心、用不求回报的态度来照顾病人。真的!如果你真的真心对他们,他们感觉的到!每一次看到病人开心出院、每一次看到病人的伤口一天比一天康复、每一次看到病人从整天躺在床到后来能下床走动,往往心里都觉得满满的感动和成就感,觉得一切的努力和辛苦都值得!我希望我会一直一直得以现在这种态度照顾病人。如果到哪一天我累了,我闷了、我没有那颗心了,我会离开护士的圈子。毕竟我不想把病人的性命开玩笑。

Finished of my “Report”of my 1st management week. Now let me talk about my Holiday just passed last 2 weeks. After of College Final Exam, I choose to give myself a relax vacation. Therefore, I decided to go Kelantan for 9 days holiday with my dearest group member à Syakina! If not mistaken, she had invited me to travel to her hometown since we are Semester2, now finally can go already!

Theme of my holidays this time : Back to Natural Life^^


Here are some photo taken during holidays~


1st day arrived at Kelantan, Me & She ( Syakina ) went for blood donation! Same  situation as last blod donation, i had been cucuk both hand~ Pain T.T --> So I decided will donate blood using my big vein at right hand next time~


After so many times of blood donation, this is my 1st time to receive an appreciate Certificate^^




Went to beach with friends, but i not really know what is the beach name~ But I'm sure that is somewhere at Kelantan! hahahahahaXD


Satay Malaysia


Budu


 Is all about FOOD FOOD FOOD~Actually got some more, but i lazy to put them up here~ Is so nice enjoy the food under sky, feel the real nature life~


At Sibu, there also got a Rejang River. But I never have a drink at the river side. But i done it at Sempadan of Malaysia & Thailand~


 The most favorite during this holidays, is the time of every morning wake up time.
Is so damn cold and I can feel the really fresh air here!

That's all about me for past 2 weeks~
^^
See you all next time~~~


Wednesday, March 20, 2013

天下真的有免费的午餐!

这几天的压力和疲惫, 我终于熬过了。不敢相信,时间过得那么快。真的仿佛一眨眼,我的学护生涯已经快来到了尾声。我没什么特别期望,我只求上天能让我及格,不用重考。之前提起,我要及格是为了我的Star Cruise之旅,可是现在泡汤了! 可是不是因为我不及格,而是这个活动被取消了。当然,虽不能去Star Cruise,我还是要我的College Final Exam及格!

前不久,我们的首相大人送了RM 250的红包给大学生们(Book Boucher 1 Malaysia - BB1M ),我也拿到啦。趁着今天考完试,就去花光这“大马免费的午餐”。虽然大家都说,政府不会那么慷慨,送钱给人民花费,为的都是近来要举行的选举。我虽然到了投票年龄,可我不认为我会去投票。所以,这可不可以算是我免费的“午餐”呢?

为了这RM250,我在Popular 逛了快三个小时。来看看我的战利品吧~



这就是我“免费的午餐费”啦~~~谢谢大马政府,可是我还是不会把我的票投给你!哈哈哈。这就是人性~~〉得了便宜还卖乖。。。



你有权力限制80%要买书,可是没有限制要买什么书呀。这就是所谓的80%。我买了激励书籍,小说,烘培食谱,就是没有买课外书。


这本是《男人来自火星,女人来自金星》的原著所写的另一本书,叫做《Starting Over – 重新开始》 。两本书我都买了。放得下某些事,真的很重要。这样我才能提起另一个幸福。




啊!有了。这就是唯一一本我买的有关于学习的书!Dictionary of Nursing 护士专用字典。不要小看它, 它可是我买的书籍当中最贵的!



都要完成我的学业了,所以文具就不用买了。还记得去年拿的RM200, 有些文具我还没开封呢!所以我买了Speaker。买回到家,才发现有惊喜。原来这Speaker还有LED灯。


到后来,只需多付RM3.50。我却满载而归!感恩~



又来一个免费午餐!一张为期一年的Popular会员卡和一张额外的RM50voucher。谢谢 Popular Book Store 



最后,我最满意的,莫过于买了一支刻了二哥名字的钢笔要送给他。三个哥哥里,我觉得我最疼他了!因为我知道,所有兄弟姐妹里,他也是最疼我这唯一的妹妹了!哈哈哈!可是大哥三哥小弟,不要吃醋,我没有忘记你们!无论如何, 我回家时,人人都有礼物可收,
OK


P/s : I am not from rich family but I am blissful enough to have anything I need in my Life! THANKS GOD!

Thursday, February 21, 2013

The Ever Last OSCE In My Student Life of Nursing


我发现,我并不是一个勤劳的部落客。 因为, 我停留在部落格的真的少之又少。尤其是那位我想关心的女孩block了我之后。 一直找不到想上部落格的动力。

这次会让我来写心情的原因,当然又是我的OSCE了。这次的OSCE拿了和上学期一模一样的分数 –> 87.75%。不是最高,但我满意。老师说, “你退步了”。当我听到时, 心情 “咚”了一下,跌倒谷底。 是我退步了吗? 可能吧。也或许是我班的同班同学们进步了呢?其中谜底,应该只有我们N2/10 & N2/12知道吧?^^可喜可贺的是, 我们N2/10 全部都及格了。其中也好多人都有很好的成绩。继续加油吧!我希望我们都可以一起在College Final Exam中及格, 然后一起踏进NBE的考场,再接着一起拿着通往护士生涯的入门票,做个真正的护士。为了我的Star Cruise之旅, 我要努力!我要加油! 我要念书!我要及格!我要做护士!N2/10, 大家一起加油吧!


其实,我很庆幸有这么一班的同学。虽然不同肤色、不同组别、常常意见不和、出了名的捣蛋和古灵精怪的一班, 但是,我爱你们。因为让我学习不少、长大不少、成长不少。当然, 带来的欢乐也不少。我发誓,4个月后,大家各分东西,我会很想念大家。

今年新年,我没回家。但我在这里,也过得很充足。充足到没有时间给我伤感。感恩啊。可是,明年的新年,我还是希望我能在我最最亲爱的家人身边。我最亲爱的妈妈,您辛苦了。别担心,您的宝贝女儿在这里过得很好。吃得饱,睡得好。所以,也请您好好照顾自己的身体啊!也别让我担心呀!

趁着新年还没过,赶快上传一些新年照吧~~~


 除夕夜,当然也要意思意思放放一些小烟花啦。。。


大年初一,我感恩! 有的吃,还有的拿红包~~~最高兴的事,是我还在拿红包的年纪!


 心血来潮, 也炸了一些紫菜零食过年啦~~~


在此附上一张去年的合家照。其实家里又多添一位新成员咯。只是我还没有机会看到她。
可是我还是想说:罗家的大大小小, 我很想你们!